After a gap

besh kichhudin pore abar likhchhi ebar r Shining (feeling of resentment) er computer theke noy amar bari theke, Kolkata theke, ei amar first lekha, first kholasha kora, bari theke amar jogot eta etake ami jotto chinin ba etate ami jotota jure achhi r kichhu te nei kintu ami aekhon bujhte parchhi j mayer moton amio aankre dhorte chai ma hoyto kichhu jininsh ke, ami porishthiti k, eta hoyuto amar aalshemir jonno, ba may be this is my negative shotta speaking, may be it is just the fear to try out something new jeta hoyto amader shobar modhhyei achhe kichu matra te but aekta kotha thik j ami aekhono chhondo ta khuje pachhina ki j missing shala shetao identify korte parchhina aj Manisha bollo j kono karone amar karor sathei kotha bolte ichhe korchhe na tai kotha bolchhi na ki jani may be, kono karone pray kichhui amar bhalo lagchhe na sheta ki notun work place er jonno ba shekhane maniye nite parar jonno na onno kono karone ami bujhte parchhina ma baba r sathe consciously otyonto rude bhabe kotha bolchhi i don't know why have i turned into some kind of monster? she jonnoi ki cheshta korchhi to distance myself from every one and everything? confirmation peye gaele ek2 nishchinto lagbe, but that is another 5 months 1 week prothom chakri te confirmation er gurutto tai bujhini, debismita ba nitin jokhon bolto oder ta dite deri korchhe okarone tokhon bhabtam ki r hobe aaj noy kal diyei debe, but sheta r sathe j aetota chinta ba aetota stakes joriye sheta aekhon bujhchhi ebhabe bhoy peye kotodin chalabo? i wonder amar merudondo achhe kina, na ki ami just plain old escapist, a coward? ajkal consciously cheshta kori office er kotha na bhabte, but nervousness jayna, ei jodi bhul kore feli? ami ash pasher loker sathe thik kore kotha bolte parina r ami kina client er sathe kotha bolbo i am scared, jeta ami hoyto shob shomoy e hoi but i don't know how to get out of it but ebar ja hobe ami nije korbo, lets be independent thik jebhabe babu hoyechhe, ami compare korchhi jani but i am so happy for him I am porer din bolbo Babur kotha Amar Bhai, amar priyo Babu o amar didbhai bolte chay kina jani na karon o amay shob shomoy didi bole dake but phone e amar number didibhai bole save kore I love you Babu, amar shei chhotto bhai aekhon jibon jatray berochhe God bless u, always

Seperation Pangs

I never thought it could be so I cried (tried to control but my eyes welled up with tears)when I left Wipro I never thought it could be like that in Shining Kal amar last day in here But aj Amrita r Venktesh k kind of bye bollam Prothome Amritar kotha boli She won't be here tomorrow So ajkei last dekha Maybe that is over as well as because she kind of came and said bye, o dinner eo ashbena I'll miss her If you ask me for what, I'm not sure Maybe her class, her poise, her taste jar sathe ami prochur mil petam ba ok imitate korte chaitam other's diverse opinions about her didn't affect me We weren't the best of friends or even very good friend but I admire her for various reasons I don't feel it so intensely but I wish we were closer friends I hope I keep in touch with her though I am bad at that But she asked me to mail her Just as Venky said as well Ok bollam amay biyete nemontonno korte o bollo jaeno tumi ashbe ami jodi ashi? o bollo i'll be more than happy ami ok amar biyete nemontonno korte chai, jodi kori though Ok ami kokhono mail e Venky likhini, shobshomoy Venktesh likhechhi Amar most safe drop partner, unhesitantly, numerous times :) Someone j amay shobshomoy hashiyechhe ALWAYS Lots of memories or sathe koto chaat kheyechhi Anand e or sathe khule kotha bolar age olpo bhebechhi A fun and young person He gave me one good reason for being a vegetarian, love for animals I trust him on that r ekbar dekhechhilam j o ekta kharap kaj jate taka labh hote parto kichhuta company'r, sheta o allow koreni or trekking er chhobi dekhte o bhalo lagto, he is very enthusiastic about that and I identify with him about that Or sathe i could be like my college carefree days, paka and feel funny about it also, because the response was similar to mine O dushtumi o korto amar sathe, r sheta bhalo lage R o onek onek bhalo bhalo memory achhe or sathe as usual aekhon mone porchhe na My source of smile,I'll miss you Venky