After a gap

besh kichhudin pore abar likhchhi ebar r Shining (feeling of resentment) er computer theke noy amar bari theke, Kolkata theke, ei amar first lekha, first kholasha kora, bari theke amar jogot eta etake ami jotto chinin ba etate ami jotota jure achhi r kichhu te nei kintu ami aekhon bujhte parchhi j mayer moton amio aankre dhorte chai ma hoyto kichhu jininsh ke, ami porishthiti k, eta hoyuto amar aalshemir jonno, ba may be this is my negative shotta speaking, may be it is just the fear to try out something new jeta hoyto amader shobar modhhyei achhe kichu matra te but aekta kotha thik j ami aekhono chhondo ta khuje pachhina ki j missing shala shetao identify korte parchhina aj Manisha bollo j kono karone amar karor sathei kotha bolte ichhe korchhe na tai kotha bolchhi na ki jani may be, kono karone pray kichhui amar bhalo lagchhe na sheta ki notun work place er jonno ba shekhane maniye nite parar jonno na onno kono karone ami bujhte parchhina ma baba r sathe consciously otyonto rude bhabe kotha bolchhi i don't know why have i turned into some kind of monster? she jonnoi ki cheshta korchhi to distance myself from every one and everything? confirmation peye gaele ek2 nishchinto lagbe, but that is another 5 months 1 week prothom chakri te confirmation er gurutto tai bujhini, debismita ba nitin jokhon bolto oder ta dite deri korchhe okarone tokhon bhabtam ki r hobe aaj noy kal diyei debe, but sheta r sathe j aetota chinta ba aetota stakes joriye sheta aekhon bujhchhi ebhabe bhoy peye kotodin chalabo? i wonder amar merudondo achhe kina, na ki ami just plain old escapist, a coward? ajkal consciously cheshta kori office er kotha na bhabte, but nervousness jayna, ei jodi bhul kore feli? ami ash pasher loker sathe thik kore kotha bolte parina r ami kina client er sathe kotha bolbo i am scared, jeta ami hoyto shob shomoy e hoi but i don't know how to get out of it but ebar ja hobe ami nije korbo, lets be independent thik jebhabe babu hoyechhe, ami compare korchhi jani but i am so happy for him I am porer din bolbo Babur kotha Amar Bhai, amar priyo Babu o amar didbhai bolte chay kina jani na karon o amay shob shomoy didi bole dake but phone e amar number didibhai bole save kore I love you Babu, amar shei chhotto bhai aekhon jibon jatray berochhe God bless u, always

Seperation Pangs

I never thought it could be so I cried (tried to control but my eyes welled up with tears)when I left Wipro I never thought it could be like that in Shining Kal amar last day in here But aj Amrita r Venktesh k kind of bye bollam Prothome Amritar kotha boli She won't be here tomorrow So ajkei last dekha Maybe that is over as well as because she kind of came and said bye, o dinner eo ashbena I'll miss her If you ask me for what, I'm not sure Maybe her class, her poise, her taste jar sathe ami prochur mil petam ba ok imitate korte chaitam other's diverse opinions about her didn't affect me We weren't the best of friends or even very good friend but I admire her for various reasons I don't feel it so intensely but I wish we were closer friends I hope I keep in touch with her though I am bad at that But she asked me to mail her Just as Venky said as well Ok bollam amay biyete nemontonno korte o bollo jaeno tumi ashbe ami jodi ashi? o bollo i'll be more than happy ami ok amar biyete nemontonno korte chai, jodi kori though Ok ami kokhono mail e Venky likhini, shobshomoy Venktesh likhechhi Amar most safe drop partner, unhesitantly, numerous times :) Someone j amay shobshomoy hashiyechhe ALWAYS Lots of memories or sathe koto chaat kheyechhi Anand e or sathe khule kotha bolar age olpo bhebechhi A fun and young person He gave me one good reason for being a vegetarian, love for animals I trust him on that r ekbar dekhechhilam j o ekta kharap kaj jate taka labh hote parto kichhuta company'r, sheta o allow koreni or trekking er chhobi dekhte o bhalo lagto, he is very enthusiastic about that and I identify with him about that Or sathe i could be like my college carefree days, paka and feel funny about it also, because the response was similar to mine O dushtumi o korto amar sathe, r sheta bhalo lage R o onek onek bhalo bhalo memory achhe or sathe as usual aekhon mone porchhe na My source of smile,I'll miss you Venky

English kaeno? / Memoirs of a lazy bug

Achha shobai English e kaeno blog lekhe ami ei matro notice korlam r jeta niye likhbo bhebechhilam sheta bemalum bhule gelam ami to aetodin dhore Bangla tei likhe ashchhi mane its more of communication for me, ami jokhon kotha boli Bangla r English dutotei boli, mane whichever way I am comfortable in It could include phrases, an entire sentence or just a word in English when I am speaking But bhebe to dekhini she bhabe aj(na kobe jaeno) ek jaygay porlam j gaan shona, boi pora egulo hobby noy but ways of passing the time hobby is something like dancing, singing, writing poetry etc. Mane mone holo jetate matha khatate hobe ki khatnir kotha, mane its an interesting prospect, more so because we are the only living beings capable of it but to think of it, ki khatnir kaaj But as usual with all things u hate, no options amar office e ekta notun chhele esechhe for summer internship. or bhage kono bichhchhiri kaaj porlei ami moja kore boli "Enjoy Madi"(madi mane to do in Kannada, ami shob kothar sheshei madi word ta jure dei) r o reply kore aur koi option hi nehi hai achha abar pore bhabbo ekdinei nahole exhaust hoye jabe ekdine ki aeto khatni poshay?

abar ekta birktikor bekar din

jokhon sharadinei kichhu meaningful korlam na tokhon r ki bolbo kono kono din jaay ki j busy ki bolbo ektar por ekta kaaj eshei jay, shegulo shesh korte korte onek raat hoye jaay aj kaeno j chhuti ta nilam na aekhon mone hochhe dur bhalo lagena amanush bole ekta notun cinema ashchhe shetate ekta gaan achhe monta kore duru duru ami shunini khali ei line ta jani ki j baje boki ei blog guloy loke koto bhalo bhalo jinish lekhe ami besh diary lekhar moto likhi erpor Bangalore niye ekdin likhte hobe Bombay niyeo likhbo but obviously Bangalore er sriti ta much longer and more durable amar plane er bondhu amay shikhiyechhilo j jotoi kharap laguk Bangalore amay rojgar diyechhe for 2 whole bloody years of my life onek onek koshto o diyechhe but tao shikhiyechhe tai loads and loads of memory happy and sad, but complete aemon kore bolchhi jaeno ajkei rate chhere chole jachhi ta to noy kintu ei 2 years er stint ta amay eka thaka to shekhalo amar ekta experience to holo eta khub joruri ami jerom norom moner manush chhilam i hope ta theke ek2 unnoti to hoyechhe manush hishebe kotota better hoyechhi sheta oboshyo onnera decide korte pare,amio pari oboshyo

Diary ki? Na meri dukh bhari dastaan?

Asholey ami onek shomoy bhabi bhalo kichhu likhbo But shei shomoy lekha shombhob hoyna R jokhon hoy tokhon kichhui mone porena Ami chhotbelay bhabtam j diary likhbo but bhoy petam j keu jodi pore naey Besh kichhudin likheo chhilam Bhechhilam baire kothao porte gaele ba chakri korte gaele abar likhbo But ekbar habit chole gaele ar ashena Kintu eta besh kharap j bhalo bhalo topic mone porleo lekha hoye othena Ami ki Wake Up Sid er Konkona r moto ekta khata pen niye ghurbo?

Ek din, bekar

Apt title//jedin nijer mone hoy kichhui productive dite parlam na ba kono kaj e korlam na, shedin erokom mone hoy Achha erokom ki shobar hoy?na bodhhoy Aj puro thanda ekta din Mane kono uttejona nei Doesn’t mean j kaaj nei But ami kichhui korte parchhina Bhebchhilam j aj chuti nebo tao holona As usual bhishon ghum pachhe

Life sux in ofice

eta ki shoabr jonnoi tru? na maximum loker jonno? na olpo koyejoner jonno? naki amar moto despo depressive der jonno? option 3 out, common sense ekta kotha achhe na, "Man proposes God disposes sheta bodle "Man proposes, boss disposes" bhebchhilam mumbai trip tar kotha likhbo mathata aekhon gorom, 3diner long weekend ta khanikta holeo mati hochhe, ami mumnnabhai er boman iranir moto laughter therapy kore chap ta katanor cheshta korchhi r gaichhi majhe majhe, "ekbar biday de ma ghure ashi" janina eta keu porbe kina, keu hashbe kina, keu pagol bhabbe kina, but ami bodhoy elomelo title take justify korchhi ami jodi puran likhtam shtar naam hoto "Biroktikotha" later

Back to the grind

Abar Monday morning blues kikore j sharadin khali ghum ghum paay janina hotat mone porlo "poran jaay joliya" bole ekta recent bangla cinema (jeta Namaste London er copy ebong ejonye prochur fine o diyechhe) r ekta gaan, jar line holo "rate ghum ghum ashe na Chokhe ghum ghum name(/ashe) na kaeno ghum ghum ashe na janina (maybe) baje boka shesh aj ami chhaeka khelam gorom korai te ei week e friday chhuti tar por 5months no chhuti ki j korbo//bhablei birokto lagchhe//Anyway (kalkei janlam Anyways bolata bhul English) abar ghum pachhe, shokal 10.42 e haai tulchhi kal ek2 onko kore besh bhalo lagchhilo, kharap o karon I think I have lost my comfort with Maths student life tai bhalo, porikkha te ami ektu boro hoye jawar porei bhoy petam na so exams were not a deterrent for me asha ba ambition ta khub beshi chhilona tai hoyto, borong result ashle ek2 dukkho hoto///ami porikkhar pore kokhono hishab kortam na ba gune dekhtam na j total koto pabo, tai 88 pele kharap lagto j aetoi pelam jokhon 90 pelam na kaeno jak, no more dukhi dukhi kotha Mumbai trip tar kotha ebar likhte hobe Bye all and Bye to me Best of Luck, nana CONGRATULATIONS to me for a wonderful week ahead :)

Elo melo dur chhai

Shuru holo depression er series keu ki porbe? ami jani na but hindi te bole na Bharas nikalna, ami tai korbo jodi bhabo ami churanto frustu tobe tai kintu amar hoye justification dei, ami eguloke khanikkhon e mathay rakhi then furut shudhu rare occassions e er onnotha hoy ekjon amar dukkher kotha shune bolechhilo j "I am happy to be sad" achha eta ki kokhono hote pare? k shadh kore dukhi hote chaay, unless she jodi na pagol hoy ? AMI NA MOTEO Ok, aj tobe thak porerdin amra aalshemir golpo korbo tobe thak er golpo --- bus e ekjon mohila nijer stoppage e neme jawar jonno seat theke uthlen, pashei bosha ekjon ''bhodro''lok (pore bujhben bhodro kothata kaeno highlighted) hotat mohilar sarita pichhon theke khanikta tene dilen Mohila tele begun jole uthe bollen, eta kirokom oshobbhota? apni ekti nongra, itor lok, ityadi ityadi gaali, English e jake amra shadharonoto "bla blah blah" boli bhodro''lok bollen, "oh apnar apotti achhe? tobe thak, bole haat ti bariye mohilar sariti mohilar poshchaddesher khaje (Hope no more elaboration required) dhukiye nirbikar mukhe boshe roilen ashpasher lokjonder kotha ki bolbo, apnarai guess korun ebar bolun to, bhodro''lok kothata justified kina? PUNOSHCHO : uporer ghotonati shotyo ghotona adharito noy, oti SHOTYO GHOTONAI bote aj ashi